I hope that when you read the title and opened this blog post you heard the level up music from the Legend of Zelda games in your head. If not, please re-read while doing so - it adds to it, I swear.
Now that that is out of the way: hey there, friend. Long time no blog and I hope that you are doing well. If you aren't doing too hot, remember that better time are coming even if it doesn't necessarily feel like it right now (I know that sounds like crap, but I can back this up).
A few months ago, I was in a really rough spot. I'd been job searching for months, my depression and anxiety were (and sometimes still are) at all an all-time high, and I was totally isolating myself from my relationships.
In a lot of aspects, I felt like a failure and I felt like it was glaringly obvious to everyone around me. I was constantly questioning myself, my ability, and my worth.
But things finally started to look up for me once I finally got a new job as the Social Media Coordinator for a cannabusiness marketing solutions company. Let me tell you - I didn't know how huge of an impact having a great job can make on your mental health and overall well-being.
I have been with this new company for just over three months now, but I can already feel a bit more of my confidence and belief in my abilities and knowledge coming back. I no longer dread starting tasks out of fear that someone won't like it or that I don't actually belong in my space.
Outside of the workplace, I am starting to feel the drive to create and do more again. I have been lettering, reading, and writing more; and I am hoping to share some more of that with you soon. I got a new plant baby who is doing great (you'll meet him soon!), and I even got to go with my boyfriend and his brother to see my favorite hockey team play recently!
But while things have been getting better, there is still that tiny, anxious part of me that is scanning for the next bad thing, that is telling me there are reasons why I shouldn't enjoy these great moments as much as I am.
To that part of me, I am saying "Yikes" and moving on. While I might have some more leveling up to do, I am confident in saying I earned all of that XP - and I know you will earn yours too.
